Honey and Clover

To make a prairie it takes a clover and one bee.

idk

The smarter

I become

the more the world

falls on my shoulders.

The more modest

I become

I find myself

alone and forgotten

The tension

The feeling

Everything

I don't feel this,

that everything will be alright.

I don't see it that way,

with right and wrong.

I don't hear this,

this beat of the

drum within my thoughts

I wish I felt this way.

This is a crime. I am not meant to live this way, but I am at a loss. I feel very alone. Alone, in a sense, of friends more so than within myself. Where are they? Why must it be like this? I want to go back to where I was. I was content there. I just have to pull through until September. Until my birthday. After that, I can relax and take a 10 month vacation to Japan. Nice. It will be nice.

The Start of Summer

is not exciting in the least. I feel like it has potential, but it will not ignite until this weather changes as a start. I started my job. I hate it but I deal. All I need to do is work for Japan. That is all. I wonder if anyone even reads this blog..

I don't really think anything anymore.

Quite Disappointing.

I wish someone could show me something.

Finals

brain ripped,

eyes red,

body tight.

compile, compress, retain

repeat.

repeat

repeat

It's all bull shit, really.