On Going

It's just never ending the signs of myself ending. The ending of the world. The ending of families. The breaking of myself and others. I don't know how I feel but I just woke up and the world exploded. My family and friends exploded on me. I'm sorry Subway, but I just had to get some cookies. Please forgive me for taking them (even though I worked prior that morning). I hate everything and everyone. Goodnight.\

Worn and Torn

Outspoken annoyance

overwhelms me

as I listen to the

whispers of the

sounds that come out

of the mouths of

the flesh and blood.

The petty words

that touch ears

go buzz buzz.

Ouch.

Hands reach

for the sides

but the sounds

echo,

echo,

echo.

"I've tried to warn you"

says a man who knows.

"Warn you about the

inconsiderable humans

of this world."

Of course,

I did not listen.

Now look at me.

Oh, people. Com'on.

Seriously?

I am surrounded by endless shit

and I can't move.

My Love

My love for you

was faulty.

Like the seasons

changing,

there was movement

elsewhere.

My love for you

has died tonight

like winter

destroys roses.

In all confidence,

I hope spring rises again.

I find

myself thinking

of you alone.

I was trying to

write this poem

to express my love

but now

I am just writing

because I have

no more love

to express.

I am an empty shell.

I tried everything,

but anger is an issue,

I guess..

Today, I tried giving a present to someone. They called me materialistic. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything. I felt... confused, bothered, like I was doing something wrong by giving a present to a friend... or maybe I just felt angry because it didn't turn out the way I wanted. However, now I am depressed. Now, I am alone. And crying. I hate this. I really do. Ending would the best of all right now. I don't know what to do anymore.....

Movie Recommendation

Shadows & Lies. This movie was quite interesting. The plot and the drama was thrilling. If you like dramatic taumatic movies, I'd recommend. Anyway, Franco's persona was brilliant. Please watch, if you have the time, that is.

Besides me

The feelings of

leaving behind broken pieces

of empty glass cases

of purity.

Never thought

of being left behind

but besides me,

I am okay.

Beside me,

stay with me.

Lay down beside me,

but besides me.

Not thinking twice,

never ending days.

Actually, I never thought

I would think twice.

The shadows are overwhelming.

I see them on your face.

Besides me,

I am okay.

I never thought.

The Beauty of It All

Your lips, nose

Your chin to your neck

are the waves of a

humming bird flapping its wings.

Your soft lips give me

a sense of humidity

as they gently push together

on my soft skin

As hands move down farther,

they suddenly recal a dent in the skin.

The collar bone.

The bone which connects

the neck and the intelligence,

the reasoning I cannot comprehend.

The beauty,

Everything.

You are the most pleasant of them all.

Your reasoning is cold to the touch,

but your soft skin

cannot reduce my

compulsion to touch you.

Left and Right

The left and right brain

have no connection.
It's uses are useless,
stolen from the right side.

The right side is used most often.

It creates a sense of...

everything.

Connecting the two would be chaotic.

That mind blowing experience

would be stimulating.

A sense of ecstasy.

I can feel it coming.

Breathing harder and harder.

Pushing, pulling.

Living.

Body pulsing,

Hands trembling.

Ready for the excitement?

Not at all.

The sense of melancholic has been exposed

because of the connection between the two.

There is neither here nor there.

Once again,

I am back at the beginning.

Oh Now I see

I am a convenience.

Understanding

I just don't understand.

Am I just a selfish person as well?

A needle in a haystack?

I want to break loose,

but that was the way I was raised,

I guess.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to get mad.

There I go again saying sorry again.

How come it is always me being the bad guy?

Just a thought

I just need a break from my mind. It holds too much. However, even if i utter phrases, no response is given. All that is left is emptiness because of the way us, as humans, were raised; selfish, ignorant, naive. Nothing comes of this statement.

I just

explained myself

and got no response.

I am left with emptiness.