Current Feels

I don't feel comfortable in Japan, but I usually do okay. 

One Night Stand - DRELLER

vibes.

Unfit for a title

Why is it so scary

The way someone feels 

To release the grip of trust

And for happiness to succeed

It's always a challenge 

However, I didn't realize 

The mistakes I made until 

It was too late 

Though, regret doesn't linger,

Leaving him there 

Begging for me to stay 

Was confusing 

It confused me.

Why would anyone say those things 

Why say, "stay with me" 

But not a moment later, "because we may never meet again" 

Of course I wouldn't stay. 

I don't want to fall after

I don't want to feel anxious 

I don't want to know 

What happens later 

So I run. 

Faster and faster 

Pushing 

Tripping on myself

Escaping 

Feeling anxious 

Realizing

Knowing the result of my actions 

I'm sorry I'm so selfish 

Mistakes aren't always regrets 

But I'd say this one is

It is the last. 

Finished, I think. 

Reading

Reading Books 

It's like an escape 

Flowing through each page 

Running through the emotional spectrum 

The smell of paper 

Touching words 

Eyes scanning pages

Even a kindle 

The electronic shelf 

Unlimited books 

The satisfaction of finally finishing something 

Something impossible when it comes to reality 

Yet perfectly sound in my mind 

Soaking in the warmth 

Shaking out the coldness 

I enjoy reading 

The fiction takes me

I loathe reality 

It's clarity stares at me 

Begging to End

mmm, something i desperately want on vinyl.

Really? Again?

It's been a while.

The anger 

And frustration,

The admiration

And the cliche.

I mean,

It dies down.

Eventually.

Or maybe it's always been there.

Just make it redundant. 

Release slowly.

Slipping through

The fingers of 

Living

Am I alive again? 

I laugh.

Please.

Simple Madness

The most disturbing part of it being that it could be true, you know?