Post-deciding. iv

All these manipulations

Never meant to hurt you 

I wasn't there 

But neither was the mind

The thoughts lingered

On and on and on 

Truthful lies 

Live and die 

Just give it time 

You'll be fine

Do whatever it takes 

Just give it time 

You'll be fine 

Recycled thoughts Continue 

But a whole new you 

And a new me 

Creative designs 

Flowing through the bags

taking out the trash

Trying not to lag 

I'm just down for a minute 

But I'm always in it 

Just give it time 

You'll be fine

Do whatever it takes 

Just give it time 

You'll be fine

Figure out things later 

The decision is made 

Emotions overflowing 

Not dwelling in the past

Won't let you down

I'll hold you down 

Letting my guard down

It's me I've found

All I'm doing is going home 

That's all I'm doing 

It's all I'm doing

I don't want to do this shit again 

I am not pretending anymore

I'm leaving now

It's all I'm doing 

That's all I'm doing 

Just going home

Decision Designs

Sometimes the pressure

Doesn't even measure 

The feelings that come and go 

With the flow

Inhaling in 

Then out the door 

Anxiety races as I light 

Suddenly ignite 

Warm summer days 

Cold winter nights 

But fall and spring can't even compare 

No one even cares 

You say you like winter

But you just like the sweater 

Hair up, pinned down 

Sleeping around

Decision Designs 

Tracing the lines 

Degrees are key 

But who thought we'd be cultured

all we are all vultures 

Clinging on to the devastated 

Going to yoga to get meditated

Maybe the doctor to get medicated 

But you know you can only help You

Because that's how lights do 

Searching for the paper 

Rolling up the letters 

Gotta get that cover 

Sow it, get it plastered

Drink to paid 

Going through the days

Waiting to get hazed 

I'm stuck in my ways 

Waiting for that one moment 

When I don't feel that pressure 

No more measures

No more math 

I can't calculate the act 

Trying to not attack 

I'm done with this shit 

I'll just type away my top hits 

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