I'm sorry but

I don't know how I feel anymore
I don't know how to think anymore
I am extremely self conscious
I am beginning to have a stutter
yet I always wonder
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Delusional

These delusions

are deleting my thoughts
about how i feel about you.

These illusions
are perceived by the actions
taken by a tenth of a fraction.

These fakes
are undertaking the rising
of eating your own flakes


bullshit

LOST!

looking up at the lights

thinking maybe it's a good night

take a couple of hits

making it big

but thats all in my mind

the boxes are burnt

unopened ones sealed

i can't get to you

your mind is a cave

the forgotten history 

of your love

plastered on the cold walls 

"It exists"

"I'm not lost"

Where is it?

Where are you? 

Panic

why won't someone tell me

what they know

or is it all a show

i can't really tell

the spasms of sarcasms

the flakes of fakes

like a self conscious woman

I follow you

blindly

i follow

but now i wallow

as your actions hit me

like a heart attack

maybe I am just being dramatic

It's a panic

shaken bones

my mind has grown

It's just a panic

a panic.