Sleep Watching

As I sleep,
the silence in my mind
and all I see petrifies me.
And no one knows this;
No one can save me.

As I sleep,
silence circulates within my brain
but as I wake up in the same place,
I realize
I wont wait here any longer.
This life i live in,
I can no longer be patient with.

Still,
now it is incompatible
but all those promises 
will smash into pieces.


No one is watching me now,
but as I am on the verge to drown,
and I thought I would want to see you once more.

no, I thought that is what I needed
But what I wanted was a deception.

Now look,
the love that was conjured up by chemistry,
was a fools love.
To be enough,
To feel enough,

This.
This is all I want. 

However, it still not quite the way it was. 
All the promises fractured.

Reasons are many,
but I love to spend 
all my time up
in my own head
because the words coming 
out of your face is unbelievable.  

Then I think, 
my reasoning would
be dubious too?


This never made much sense to me 
So I sleep alone. 

I guess I love to spend all my time up in my own brain. 

Because I can't believe the words coming up out of your face. 

Liar, 

You call never came. 

But I 

Sleep well

now that 

You're gone.