Tonight

Eating together

Seemed normal

But I only noticed the food

That I had order was

Being played with instead 

Of eating as if it were enjoyable.

I see you on the other side,

no smile, not emotion.

I feel like this is

impossible, 

incomprehensible

Because the way you are

And the way you 

Move around each subject

Or never say anything except a no

Is a definition of virile.

However,

I am in love with you.

You love me too.

I will do anything for you.

But I think I am at my peak,

soon,

I will die.

That is,

Unless everything you have said is true.

Should I trust you?

Can I trust you?

I have trusted before,

and the grim reaper came

and took the life of the one

who cared the most.

Does that mean,

you reap what you sow?

this confusion,

will it pass?

I will wait for you.

I will try my best.